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Entry tags:
Marble Gallery
Characters: Alucard & anyone who wishes to join him
Setting: First Block - Floor Thirteen
Format: Prose
Summary: Alucard surfaces from hiding and comes across the one floor he feels he needs.
Warnings: none
In the distant past, for anyone in the tower to come across the forlorn dhampir was a rarity, but the past few weeks had been exceptional. Alucard had been counting the days since that moment, that lapse of hungry desperation when he had given in to his undead, vampiric tendencies. But what was worse than the act of feeding on the dead was that others had seen him do it. Innocents had been witness to his true nature (as he liked to call it) and this had affected him so greatly, had wounded him so irreparably, that he felt unable to show his face again.
A creature of the night like Alucard found great ease in hiding, with his impressive skill set it was effortless for him to phase into a cool, eerie mist to avoid detection. Nobody thought twice to examine the chilling air around them.
He had expected to live in hiding, but staying in the same area for more than a few days was a great strain on his mind. The same four walls were enough to drive a normal, healthy man to depression so it had been nigh unbearable for the dhampir to stay put for more than a day or so.
In Alucard's solitude he had found one place he took solace in. On the thirteenth floor of the first block he had recently come across the architecture of a grandiose cathedral. He spent a great deal of his time here, consumed by prayer and thought, contemplating his past actions and what was to become of him.
In this quietness a deep, and very secret part of the half-breed thought on the few companions he had made in the tower, an odd mix of emotions welling in him. He battled with the desire to see these people whilst fully knowing the threat he posed to them. It was a dilemma that he did not know how to remedy.
The vast halls of the cathedral were solemn and quiet today, more so than Alucard felt they had been for a while. In the background he could see
the ritual of a Mass being performed, watching from a distance with cool, glassy eyes. It was some time before he pulled away from the spectacle and moved to a less populated area of his favourite floor.
Towards the back of the cathedral stood an ornately carved box with two hip-length curtains in a shade of deep red. A confessional that was (in Alucard's experience) never occupied. A moment's pause before he pulled back one of the curtains, stepping inside the penitent's compartment, and shutting the curtain behind him he sat down gingerly, staring through the wooden lattice and the neighbouring, empty compartment.
The dhampir spoke, it had been weeks since he had.
"I should be so lucky to speak with a priest."
A pause before he continued.
"What would I even say to a priest if there were one here. Forgive me of my sins?" a bitter-sweet chuckle as he idly shook his head, the idea of forgiveness far from his mind. "How men find comfort in confessing their woes, and how I envy them." his hand reached up and lackadaisically he stroked the back of his gloved fingers against the intricate carvings of the lattice. "Hm..." he hummed in a solemn, melodic tone "I wonder what is to become of me in this place."
Setting: First Block - Floor Thirteen
Format: Prose
Summary: Alucard surfaces from hiding and comes across the one floor he feels he needs.
Warnings: none
In the distant past, for anyone in the tower to come across the forlorn dhampir was a rarity, but the past few weeks had been exceptional. Alucard had been counting the days since that moment, that lapse of hungry desperation when he had given in to his undead, vampiric tendencies. But what was worse than the act of feeding on the dead was that others had seen him do it. Innocents had been witness to his true nature (as he liked to call it) and this had affected him so greatly, had wounded him so irreparably, that he felt unable to show his face again.
A creature of the night like Alucard found great ease in hiding, with his impressive skill set it was effortless for him to phase into a cool, eerie mist to avoid detection. Nobody thought twice to examine the chilling air around them.
He had expected to live in hiding, but staying in the same area for more than a few days was a great strain on his mind. The same four walls were enough to drive a normal, healthy man to depression so it had been nigh unbearable for the dhampir to stay put for more than a day or so.
In Alucard's solitude he had found one place he took solace in. On the thirteenth floor of the first block he had recently come across the architecture of a grandiose cathedral. He spent a great deal of his time here, consumed by prayer and thought, contemplating his past actions and what was to become of him.
In this quietness a deep, and very secret part of the half-breed thought on the few companions he had made in the tower, an odd mix of emotions welling in him. He battled with the desire to see these people whilst fully knowing the threat he posed to them. It was a dilemma that he did not know how to remedy.
The vast halls of the cathedral were solemn and quiet today, more so than Alucard felt they had been for a while. In the background he could see
the ritual of a Mass being performed, watching from a distance with cool, glassy eyes. It was some time before he pulled away from the spectacle and moved to a less populated area of his favourite floor.
Towards the back of the cathedral stood an ornately carved box with two hip-length curtains in a shade of deep red. A confessional that was (in Alucard's experience) never occupied. A moment's pause before he pulled back one of the curtains, stepping inside the penitent's compartment, and shutting the curtain behind him he sat down gingerly, staring through the wooden lattice and the neighbouring, empty compartment.
The dhampir spoke, it had been weeks since he had.
"I should be so lucky to speak with a priest."
A pause before he continued.
"What would I even say to a priest if there were one here. Forgive me of my sins?" a bitter-sweet chuckle as he idly shook his head, the idea of forgiveness far from his mind. "How men find comfort in confessing their woes, and how I envy them." his hand reached up and lackadaisically he stroked the back of his gloved fingers against the intricate carvings of the lattice. "Hm..." he hummed in a solemn, melodic tone "I wonder what is to become of me in this place."
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He scoured high and far within the tower, encountering both friends and foe in this lair until he stumbled upon the grand church upon the thirteenth floor. Haldir's gaze widened once he saw it. Almost everything about Animus has changed greatly from what he last remembered. It's been this way ever since the assault on the tower a month or so ago. Everything was different now, and everyone who survived the great ordeals that have come to pass were just as changed.
Eying the cathedral with a skeptical gaze, Haldir soon found himself pushing open the nearest door. He could hear the voice of another nearby, but nothing could've prepared him for the glimmer of silver that caught his eye. "There you are." The Elf said with a bright smile upon his lips.
"High and low I have search for thee, and yet I could not find you until now."
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But there was one person who he was not yet ready to face, and upon seeing them, hearing their voice, any confidence that the dhampir had once had in his deluded monologue was now lost.
Words did not come, but the subtle changes in the dhampir's expression spoke volumes. There was that commonplace humility that Alucard had always carried in those golden eyes, but something fresh and dark lay in his gaze. There was a deep shame that was buried within him, the taste of dead blood had infected his soul, as well as the knowledge that some remained who had witnessed his base act.
And yet, in the darkness and cacophony of emotions that were racing through his mind, Alucard face continued to hold a hint of tenderness. Especially for his closest friend here in the tower.
"Why--" he began, his voice a ghost in the grandeur of the cathedral "--why did you come here?" a pause "In search of me? Then... you did not hear rumour of my actions?" his eyes drifted from the elf's, regret heavy in his coal-black heart. "But even if you did not hear tell of what I did, you still come in search for me? Are you not afraid?"
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"Hain ú-'le." The Elf muttered as he drew closer to Alucard. "Hain ú-'le; I do not fear you." Smiling somewhat as he said those words, Haldir leaned in close wrapped his hand around Alucard's. "You've lingered here long enough, haven't you?" he asked with a hint of worry in his tone.
"I see no reason for you to stay here."
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Alucard's gaze caught Haldir's and a moment of silence passed between the two of them. Deep within the dhampir lay the question: why was it that someone so blessed with life was so willing to stay with the dead? Alucard did not realise how his feelings for the elf had changed and molded into something more potent over the passed few months, but one thing he did realise now was that he was glad, so very glad, that Haldir had not witnessed what had happened weeks before.
"Do you wish for us to leave?" he asked quietly, hand subconsciously tightening ever-so-slightly.
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Wondering the purpose behind forging such an institution here and now, Haldir finally answered Alucard. "Not unless you wish it." he replied almost quietly.
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"I have offended you with talk of my beliefs?"
His voice was hesitant but soft, holding a tone of gentility that was characteristic to the dhampir.
"Forgive me, I did not think before speaking. I meant no harm with my words." and absentmindedly he added (almost sadly) "I would never mean to cause you harm..."
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"You misunderstand," Haldir began. "You haven't offended me but I fear it might be the reversal." Carefully choosing each word he said, the march warden glances over towards Alucard again with a faint smile.
"There's no need to apologize."
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It had been so long since the solemn half-vampire had had any contact with the living that perhaps he forgot himself or the boundaries he ought not to cross, but without thinking the flaxen haired man reached for his companion with his free hand. With an ethereal gentility Alucard slowly ran the backs of his curled fingers down Haldir's cheek.
"So much troubles you,--" he whispered, each word a gift brimming with compassion. "--what has happened to you that has made your heart bend so?" Alucard's cool eyes begin to drift "Did I leave you to face something so terrible?"
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"You ask too much if you truly wish to hear the thoughts of someone as troubled as myself." The Elf began. "You would do better simply focusing solely upon your own plight." Those words may have came out colder than what he previous intended but Haldir acts quickly to warm them with a smile.
"Do you not suffer enough on your own? Misery shouldn't have company."
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Frightened of him, as all the others were.
Alucard pulled his hand away from Haldir's cheek slowly, whilst at the same time releasing his other hand from the elf's. For a moment he glanced down at the backs of his fingers that had brushed against his companion's face and the sorrow that showed in Alucard's expression was so intense that the very aura of it was palpable in the air. He was filled with such regret now, revolted by the sight of himself for even thinking he had the right to be so close to Haldir.
His head rose, and he quickly moved to rub his thumb over his right eye. "Forgive me, I forgot myself." a pause as he desperately tried to find the words he needed to say "I should not have done that, or asked that of you." How could he have been so presumptuous, now he truly felt the fool.
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He never bothered to wander into such an establishment before, not even in during his time on Middle-earth. The Elf was ultimately seemed uninterested in human culture to his colleagues, but that couldn't be any further from the truth. He's completely fascinated with human architecture despite the elvish haughtiness he's famous for.
Gazing up at the grand cathedral with a look of awe upon his fair features, Haldir's gaze soon lingered upon Alucard's form once he found an empty pew. "Come sit." he instructed plainly.
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And quite suddenly it dawned on him, his feelings towards Haldir were more than simple companionship. He was attracted to the elf, to everything about him, and this made Alucard feel afraid.
Alucard turned to look at Haldir, his expression on the verge of tears, and he spoke. Never before had the dhampir's voice held such emotion, the only exception being in that horrific dreamworld he had experienced months hence.
"I cannot." he said, each word tender and wounded as the realisation of his feelings were beginning to crystalise. His stomach was churning and he felt light-headed, but being the naive and often blunt creature he was he did not have the common sense to hold back his thoughts. "Haldir, something in me is... changing." Alucard looked away now, as if ashamed of himself "My eyes don't see you the way they did when I first met you, and my intentions are not as wholesome as they should be." a deep breath as he continued "Where once was a desire for mere friendship now stems a longing for a touch, a sensation. Please forgive me, I don't know why or when my intentions changed as they have done but now I feel an unnatural desire and-" he paused "-I put you in jeopardy with these feelings."
Alucard took a step backwards, as if not to pollute Haldir with himself. "Forgive me-" he said again "-I should leave."
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"No, don't leave." he said quietly. "How could you possibly want to leave so soon after admitting something like that? Are you not the least bit interested in my reply?"
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Alucard feared what Haldir might say, what the elf might feel in response to his confession. In the dhampir's mind it was easier to leave with no reply, than to stay and hear words he was not prepared to cope with.
That said, Alucard did not pull away, he stood still as Haldir clung to the cuff of his sleeve. Alucard's free hand rose and he pressed his fingers and thumb down on the bridge of his nose, as if doing so would relieve the pressure in his head. "I don't know why I said what I said..." he added absentmindedly.
Wrong type of priest but whatever.
Due to its nature, he didn't hear Alucard until he was right next to the strange booth, having approached it to inspect it. He only heard the last two of his sentences, but it was enough to pique his concern.
"If you need an ear for your troubles, I could listen."
If they didn't stand together in a place like this, they would be lost, after all. They'd proven that they could have impact. So Enoch would swallow his pain from dread of loss, if it meant they had a chance.
Any priest is good! :D
Finally he spoke, voice dismayed and lost "Why would you offer me such a thing? You know nothing of me, and surely, if you do then you know that to tarry in my presence is... dangerous."
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But that didn't stop him from having a reason to listen to him. It wasn't in his nature to ignore suffering, first, and second, this lent itself well to allowing him to forget his own for a while.
"What could possibly be so monstrous that speaking of it won't help?"
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"Your gentleness undoes me, my crimes exist without forgiveness because of who and what I am," he paused "but that said, the very fact that you would offer to listen is a kindness in itself. Stay if you want. I'll tell you of my 'sins' if hearing them will alert you to the dangers present here."
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He didn't show any signs of leaving, either - he'd offered to listen, after all. "If you're as dangerous as you want me to think, it certainly doesn't seem to be by your choice. I'll listen to you."